Why is this waiting thing so hard for me? I’m not in pain. I’m not having any physical difficulties ~ aside from the normal “very pregnant” discomforts like not sleeping well, baby moving without much room in there, bending over and not be able to breathe….you know, those types of things. But over all, I don’t have any issues. I’m not even concerned with the baby being too big. Malachi was my largest baby weighing in at 8lb 6oz, which I don’t consider a big baby. None of mine have ever had the cone shaped head nor have I ever pushed for longer than 20 minutes. Based on that, I believe I have ample room for a “large” baby to pass through. Of course, the longer this baby is in there the larger it has the potential to become (which I think it will be around 9 lbs) but still, I’m not worried.
So why is this so difficult? It’s not like this is the first time I’ve waited on God’s timing. And it most certainly will not be the last. So why? I don’t know. I’ve been asking this myself for days now and I’m no closer to an answer than I was before. All I know is that it is.
I don’t doubt God’s perfect will nor do I doubt that what He has in mind is good for me and the baby. Sometimes it feels like He has forgotten me, but I know that is not true. He is here, even when/if I can’t feel Him.